i have to let go.
nobody said it was going to be easy.
you probably wont understand.
you probably blame me for everything.
you probably think everything was fine, why did you have to go and mess it up?
which i have to admit, is true in the deepest section of my heart.
i mess up, because i can’t get what i want.
what do i want? i want you.
i dont want to be another friend you care for.
i dont want to be a personal friend. like the one in Chua-Soi-Lek-Scandal.
i want to have you, wholly to myself.
But i know that impossible. :smiles:
you never did promise me anything.
you never did say you wanted me by your side forever and ever.
you said, you wanted to be my friend.
and truthfully, that was what i should have settled for in the first place, instead of indulging in this pseudo lover illusion.
i’m such a laughing stock.
i’m sorry i blamed you. coz the fault lies with me, in the first place, doesnt it?
i should have been smarter.
i should have read your fine print closer.
just take my time.
i’ll forget about you someday.
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